Tears Cleanse the Soul
Oh, Daddy, I love you soooo much!
My father is my biggest supporter, when it came to any venture I wanted to try. I'm trying to refrain from using past tense words like, "was," and ending words with "ed," because I know for a fact his presence will continue to "rain" within me. Yes, I used rain, because his love and spirit will continue to pour showers upon our lives.
My heart is heavy right now, we lost my father yesterday evening, very unexpectedly. We had no signs of any kind. No answers yet.
I will not dwell on the negative side of things. I know the pain is here, it's very present. The tears are here, the tears flow.
Daddy is the first man I've ever loved, and had countless fun with growing up. He was my in person superhero.
Daddy had a dry sense of humor, and when I say dry I mean throaaakkkk parched okay! Hahaha but you couldn't do but laugh or shake your head.
Anything his girls needed, or he thought we needed or wanted he made sure to provide.
Daddy was a hard worker, he worked full-time and recently got his Doctorate degree.
He was my live in exterminator. HaHa! Even once I got married, if Daddy was around, I called him first, even if I had to urge him to move faster because somehow in mph mind any 5 centimeter bug is sure to eat me alive!
Daddy taught me how to pray at a very young age, and what devotion looks like.
He is my best friend and number one fan!
Daddy adored his grandkids. He was so excited when we told him we were making him a granddad, or PaPi as he's known. He thought we were so cute with our baby bumps! Daddy and Lou were best buddies. When we didn't feel like playing, there Daddy was with Lou. They took long walks together. Daddy always joked that he didn't take Lou for walks, but Lou took him on walks. They had countless make believe sessions in Lou's tent. It never failed that Lou would come running out his tent telling us that his PaPi was snoring and not playing haha! He stayed up countless nights with Lou when he was born, so I could rest, and even when Lou was sick or just crying in the middle of the night. He was the first one up.
I know there are going to be good days, really good days, and really bad days. I'm not in denial of that reality. But I also know that I want to remember the great times, and they hold more power than any sorrow we could ever feel. I know whose I am, and where my hope is grounded upon.
I believe Daddy knew something was wrong or his time was coming. There is no better place than the place he's in right now. Although we grieve his presence, and wish to hug him again, who would want to come back to this corrupt world after seeing and experiencing such wonder, rendering of wholeness, and catching up with those we too have grieved here not his earth. He has no sickness and no pain. He is full of joy and nothing less that great sweet joy. He gets to see his parents again, and rest in his mother's arms. Who wouldn't want to be that little boy again being held by his first love, his mother?
I will be selfish and long for his voice and physical presence here on this earth, but I won't stay in that place for too long, because he gave so much of himself to us and his community that I can't be angry with knowing he has gained his reward, he so deserved.
How can I be positive in this moment? Honestly, I don't know other than the Son 🌞 Being positive is the one thing I always know to be. It helps me redirect my thoughts, and focus on those aspects that are loving.
Miracles are the moment where Heaven and Earth meet. And Daddy was that, and he experienced that yesterday.
While praying this is what fell upon me...." I prepare you for things even before you know that I am preparing you for it"
The Son has prepared us whether we know it or not, or feel equipped or not.
Mommy and us will be okay. Although I can't imagine losing my husband of over 40 plus years, I know Mommy will stand tall soon and testify that she got through, and we got through together!
A dear friend said "Tears Cleanse the Soul" and I find this to be nothing short of the truth
'You take what the enemy meant for evil and turn it for good' 🎵
'It may seem like I'm surrounded but I'm surrounded by you' 🎵
You have spoken and it is so
I will forever Love You Daddy! I'm going to miss my rollercoaster partner!
My father is my biggest supporter, when it came to any venture I wanted to try. I'm trying to refrain from using past tense words like, "was," and ending words with "ed," because I know for a fact his presence will continue to "rain" within me. Yes, I used rain, because his love and spirit will continue to pour showers upon our lives.
My heart is heavy right now, we lost my father yesterday evening, very unexpectedly. We had no signs of any kind. No answers yet.
I will not dwell on the negative side of things. I know the pain is here, it's very present. The tears are here, the tears flow.
Daddy is the first man I've ever loved, and had countless fun with growing up. He was my in person superhero.
Daddy had a dry sense of humor, and when I say dry I mean throaaakkkk parched okay! Hahaha but you couldn't do but laugh or shake your head.
Anything his girls needed, or he thought we needed or wanted he made sure to provide.
Daddy was a hard worker, he worked full-time and recently got his Doctorate degree.
He was my live in exterminator. HaHa! Even once I got married, if Daddy was around, I called him first, even if I had to urge him to move faster because somehow in mph mind any 5 centimeter bug is sure to eat me alive!
Daddy taught me how to pray at a very young age, and what devotion looks like.
He is my best friend and number one fan!
Daddy adored his grandkids. He was so excited when we told him we were making him a granddad, or PaPi as he's known. He thought we were so cute with our baby bumps! Daddy and Lou were best buddies. When we didn't feel like playing, there Daddy was with Lou. They took long walks together. Daddy always joked that he didn't take Lou for walks, but Lou took him on walks. They had countless make believe sessions in Lou's tent. It never failed that Lou would come running out his tent telling us that his PaPi was snoring and not playing haha! He stayed up countless nights with Lou when he was born, so I could rest, and even when Lou was sick or just crying in the middle of the night. He was the first one up.
I know there are going to be good days, really good days, and really bad days. I'm not in denial of that reality. But I also know that I want to remember the great times, and they hold more power than any sorrow we could ever feel. I know whose I am, and where my hope is grounded upon.
I believe Daddy knew something was wrong or his time was coming. There is no better place than the place he's in right now. Although we grieve his presence, and wish to hug him again, who would want to come back to this corrupt world after seeing and experiencing such wonder, rendering of wholeness, and catching up with those we too have grieved here not his earth. He has no sickness and no pain. He is full of joy and nothing less that great sweet joy. He gets to see his parents again, and rest in his mother's arms. Who wouldn't want to be that little boy again being held by his first love, his mother?
I will be selfish and long for his voice and physical presence here on this earth, but I won't stay in that place for too long, because he gave so much of himself to us and his community that I can't be angry with knowing he has gained his reward, he so deserved.
How can I be positive in this moment? Honestly, I don't know other than the Son 🌞 Being positive is the one thing I always know to be. It helps me redirect my thoughts, and focus on those aspects that are loving.
Miracles are the moment where Heaven and Earth meet. And Daddy was that, and he experienced that yesterday.
While praying this is what fell upon me...." I prepare you for things even before you know that I am preparing you for it"
The Son has prepared us whether we know it or not, or feel equipped or not.
Mommy and us will be okay. Although I can't imagine losing my husband of over 40 plus years, I know Mommy will stand tall soon and testify that she got through, and we got through together!
A dear friend said "Tears Cleanse the Soul" and I find this to be nothing short of the truth
'You take what the enemy meant for evil and turn it for good' 🎵
'It may seem like I'm surrounded but I'm surrounded by you' 🎵
You have spoken and it is so
I will forever Love You Daddy! I'm going to miss my rollercoaster partner!
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